elemental forces

What does it mean to know, to HAVE clarity?

What does it mean to go further and DO something with it?

How can the elemental forces be harnessed by consciousness? Integrated into waking up?

That’s my current investigation… 

How does the wind speak. What’s rising up from the earth beneath my feet? What message lives in the water?  What does my food have to teach me?  Can I make space to see every single cell around me as sacred teachers? 

I me with a healer, and I was called out for seeking silence when I sit. He said to pay attention to the voices that I hear.

Soaking into wakeful awareness….The piercing sound of silence. The buzz and expansion of time available when I only have THIS moment. And kindly dismissing mental talk as another sense experience, without actually listening. 

But there’s something else that wants to emerge there. In the stillness. And I’m here for it. Even in the blind curiosity where this truth lives..

I have 15 days of silence coming up. Just me and my attention, and some fellow inner explorers sitting and being around me. 

I’m reading for the wisdom function to kick in. I live for that shit. According to Shinzen Young, there’s two sides to wisdom — content and activity. The two sides of wisdom are found in the image of bodhisattva Manjushri, who is associated with prajñā (insight) in Mahayana Buddhism. In one hand he holds a book (content of wisdom), + the other hand holds a sword (activity of wisdom). 

What does it mean to know, to HAVE clarity? What does it mean to go further and DO something with it? When they’re paired for me, I feel aligned. When I have one half of the equation, I experience inner unrest, a dull soul sadness that yearns for manifestation.  

Know what I mean? Have you held half the equation, watching the other half atrophy in your inaction?

If you know, then do. If you know and don’t take the action, then you know the flavor of ‘waiting’. Of ‘pause’. That ‘pause’ and ‘waiting’ made me sick, years ago. I had to self medicate to overcome the self abandonment that marks this (in)action. This turning away. The pause is deadly, dear one.

Seeking clarity is brave work, because you are led to the precipice of action.

You brave enough to hold both?

The content and the activity? You get to take the leap, once you know your truth. Whether you can stomach it or not. Life is on the other side. When you leap, it’s exactly the right time: no sooner, no later. You’re right on time.